Losing It

How did I get this big?

Oh yeah. I’ve spent more time pregnant than not the last three years. I feel like it’s my job to finish Zoe’s meals. Taking care of myself has fallen to the background as I am consumed by the day to day care of two babies.

This fast-forward life I’ve been leading has led to a body that feels like it’s in slow motion a lot of the time. It’s a body I sometimes don’t recognize as mine when I see it in photos. Who is that big girl?

Oh good lord. That’s me.

It’s no mistake you don’t see many photos of me on this blog.

Using the kiddos to hide my body.

I love food. I really don’t like working out. That’s not a good combination unless you’re a natural size 2. The most success I ever had was losing about 25 pounds on the low-carb Atkins diet back before I met Mark.

But this time I feel different. I feel like I will succeed. It very much helps that I started a program a week ago that showed great success right away. It’s an app on my iPhone called MyNetDiary. Basically I plug in my goal weight, a time period to meet it, and it tells me how many calories I can eat a day. Then I track that by entering everything that goes into my mouth. Among other things, that has resulted in me using a measuring cup at night to determine how much wine I’m allowed. Very classy.

But so far it’s working. So is the fact that going to the YMCA now feels like break time to me. As part of our membership fee, the kids can go to the child care center there for 90 minutes a day. Zoe loves it there and Max usually just sleeps, so I feel OK about dropping them off for a bit. I like to do the treadmill. With the help of an app on my iPhone, I’ve been working on the Couch to 5K program for the past two weeks. I’ve always wanted to run in a race, but never have managed to work myself up to that level. Hopefully this time will be different. I’d love to make it to the end of a 5K this summer.

Lastly, and perhaps most importantly, is the fact that my husband is working toward the same goal. He’s using the same weight loss app on his phone and every night we compare our daily calorie intake and see how we’ve done. It helps tremendously to have that support. I don’t want to cheat when I know that likely means he’ll cheat too. I want us both to succeed. I know he’s serious about this because he’s been drinking light beer. Gasp.

So in case a mommy blog wasn’t cliche enough, I will probably also write occasionally now about our weight loss journey. Hopefully that will be a motivator too — I definitely don’t want to fail if I’ve put it out there in such a public forum. You know, to all four of you who are reading this right now.

So let’s clink our measuring cups together and say three cheers for low-cal beers.

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5 Responses to Losing It

  1. Heather says:

    Oooh…oooh…ooh….do MY race, Kara! Her Times women’s 5K — Oct. 6. It is seriously inspiring & awesome. AND we have free babysitting. Get all the mommy friends to come — it’s also stroller friendly. ;-)

    And, I totally get the comment about the gym being free time. My exercise time is ME time. Sometimes it’s the only time in the day that I have to THINK. If the kids get up early & interrupt it..I get seriously mean and want to scream…GET OUT! GET OUT! THIS IS MYYYYYY TIME! GO BACK TO BED!

    Good luck to you both — you can DO it…and now, with good weather coming, you’ll be even more inspired.

    :-) Heather

  2. Kara says:

    Thanks Heather! I will make that a goal–your race in October! See you there.

  3. Sherry says:

    You go, Kara! I think our resolve to skinnify hardened at about the same time. (I also REFUSE to buy bigger clothes for summer.) You’ve inspired me to keep going!

  4. Greta says:

    Good for you kiddo – wish I could make myself take some “me” time and use the treadmill we have sitting the our home office! I’ve been needing to lose about 10 pounds for years! Keep it up while you’re young – it gets harder the older you get!

  5. Paula Lamey says:

    Okay – I am a bit behind you and Mark, which is not good since I have much more to lose…however, I am your 6th reader (or person to comment), and it has sent me off in search of the app, ‘MyNetDiary’. Two comments struck home for me. First, ‘using the kiddos to hide my body’ (I always attempt to position myself to be disguised as a thinner person ~ with a single chin); and 2ndly, mine is a body I don’t recognize when seeing its’ reflection which lately resembles a beached whale. I do not feel as big as I am and am genuinely shocked each time. Time to take off the blinders:)

    With the move to Florida and all the change moving brings, what is one more? You motivate me to integrate the next surprise…not recognizing the smaller person who will soon be staring back at me in awe! Although voicing your own determination, I thank you for the encouragement that is a natural side effect of your own! April 10th is my start date…there, I claimed it! Good luck to both of you and everyone who follows in your footsteps. Love, Aunt Paula

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